My husband died in April and since then I have had my first at fault car accident in 30 years, I spilt water on my computer and broke it, and I've knocked over more full cups of tea / water in the last six months than in the 10 years before.
Thinking about it, my sense of balance is definitely off. I draw Temperance reversed. Things are not in the flow. Emotions are spilling out, the cups overflows but not in joy, just in mess. And when I look at the card, it's so obvious. Why would I be in the flow when such a jarring, life altering event has occurred? Instead of wondering why I'm unbalanced, I should be pleased that I am functioning at all!
And there is much to be grateful for, but I do feel like I lost a limb, and of course, it will take a long time to restore balance. But I always feel stronger when I've visualized the problem in a way that feels meaningful to me.
So, as I often say to my clients, my homework tonight is to scour the net and find a version of Temperance that really speaks to me, and meditate on if for the next week, and see if that helps restore some balance.
