Monday, May 12, 2014

Falling into the Vortex

I have had the most frustrating few weeks.  As I said to my friend, it’s only first world problems, but I live in the first world!

My internet has been intermittent or just plain down for the past 2 weeks, ditto my cell phone, I haven’t been able to reply to emails.  When my phone does work,  it drops out every second call.  Or I can hear them but they can’t hear me.  Most importantly,  my calendar, which is my entire work life, is wiped, and can’t fix it.   (the cloud ate it) 

Deep breath.  As I try to reenter my calendar,  piecing it together from old emails and texts,  I’m so discombobulated,  I’m making errors in reentry and completely confusing myself.  I have to stop and get a cup of tea and then start again.

How do I act under pressure? Well first I was in denial, hoping everything would just sort itself out with no agency from me.  Then when I acknowledged to myself how real it was, and I felt swamped and panicked, and couldn’t think clearly.  I had to take myself out, walk our new puppy, sit in the sun in the dog park, and calm down a bit.   Finally I rang some professionals and took steps to fix things and deal with fall out.   As of now, I am back on line, my phone more or less works, my email arrives and doesn’t disappear. My texts are sent, and arrive…    I’m back in the 21st century again.

But as one of my friends said, I really did fall into the vortex there.   Funny how long two weeks can feel when you are struggling against every single day.   Sometimes the energy just turns against you and you have to wait it out,  treading water,  even getting dunked a few times,  till you can get back in the flow again.

So if you have been trying to get in contact with me these past two weeks and have found it difficult – now you know why… 

I’m on the other side of it now:  if you want a reading, drop me a line, send me a text and I’ll fit you into my sparkling new calendar…

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