Sometimes a person will come to me, and as I give them news they don't want, they reveal that I am the third (or fourth, or for one girl, fifth!) tarot card reader they have seen recently and all of us said the same thing... but they don't want to hear it!
A while ago I had a very sweet Indian girl come to see me. She was pale with shadows under her eyes. She said that she had gotten drunk one night and said to her boyfriend that it was all too much, but by the time she figured out she wanted back in, he now wanted space.
She asked if they would get back together and drew
World Reversed / 5 swords / page wands Reversed / 6 swords
Even if she wills it and makes a reconciliation happen, it won't last, she's riding in the wrong direction, it will end in swords (tears, pain, moving on with sorrow, a hard learning experience)
Then she told me I was the fifth tarot card reader she had seen that month. Fifth! And all of us said the same thing, it's not going to happen, it's not going to work. But she wants to find the one who tells her it will. This is why I believe in tarot. Five total strangers, five separate decks, none of us invested in the outcome and all of us see the same thing.
So I said to her that she will do as she wants (of course) and she doesn't have to listen to us, but she needs to listen to herself. There was something wrong in the relationship which started her drunken ramble, and she needs to find a way to resolve that. She said he was always distant and punishing (why want him at all?!? The mysteries of the heart.) And if she begs him to return, then he can continue that pattern with impunity. It's only if she backs away and puts herself first, can she give him the space to see what he's missing and if he wants to move forward. She nodded slowly. He has to have some breathing room to see what you are bringing and you have to have some breathing room to see what he brings to you too. I said words to that effect four or five times.
And then she agreed, she would give him some space.
Five months later she returned telling me he was talking to her and also to another girl, what should she do. And she looked at me and started to laugh. Of course I was going to tell her to let him go. And she knew it was time. She really didn't want to, the heart wants what the heart wants, as the song goes. But you can't will another person to want you back, you can only torture yourself over it, until you are tired of the torture. After 5 months, she was starting to tire of the torture.
Two years later she came to ask me about another boy altogether. The cards were much happier with him and we both sighed with relief. I haven't seen her again. I can only hope they are still together.
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