Today's Poem

Saw this and just loved it! 

The last day of summer  by Georgie Jones:

Isn't that beautiful... 

The strangest truth

I read this on line and liked it -

People were writing their strangest truths and someone wrote,  in reality,  everyone is rooting for you.  

If you go on a date,  the person you are meeting is hoping you will be the love of their life.  If you go on a job interview,  the person interviewing is hoping you will blow them away and be perfect for the job.  If you go shopping,  the person serving you is hoping that you love everything you find and buy big. 

It's such a lovely flip to how we normally feel about things.  

Let's try that perspective for a bit... 

Will he show up as a father?

Had a difficult reading (this was a while ago,  no one I've seen this year! So never feel worried that about confidentiality!  Also I change lots of identifying details,  but the questions and card selections are real.) 

A woman in her late 30's has an unreliable boyfriend but then falls pregnant.  She comes to me when she is 6 months in,  showing a small belly, looking tired and anxious. 

She asks about the boyfriend - let's call him Oleg. 

She draws: World / King of Pentacles / 4 wands reversed / Hierophant / Ace of cups reversed

She wants him to be the end of tarot journey,  she wants him to be the world,  and stop being a single woman.  And he has certain really good fatherly qualities.  But her marriage card,  4 of wands,  is reversed.  The cards are strongly advocating that she look within and not lie to herself.  The ace of cups,  the yes to love,  is also reversed. 

I often tell people that the easiest thing to do is turn a card around.  It's much harder to shift the cards and put a different one in it's place. 

If there were no reversals than this would be a good outcome.  But the reversals and the Hierophant are warnings,  there is no smooth sailing here.  

She wants him to be something he isn't.  She went clubbing with a player and now she wants him to be husband material. And he has potential,  but the baby puts everything on stress mode.  And he is not there yet.  The more she clings/demands,  the more he spins around.  

It's clear to me that he will love the baby.  It's clear to me that he will find his feet. So, he will show up as a father.  But it wasn't clear to me that he would be her ideal partner.  

That's such a hard thing to think about.  Nothing here was properly planned and she wants to fall into a fairy tale,  but the cards were not giving her that.  

The tarot is often the start of the conversation,  not the end of it.  

She wanted more but sighed and agreed that the cards were accurate.  They are descriptors/predictors,  not magic wands...

My current favorite Image

 

Just saw this and it spoke so clearly to me!  Sometimes we want something and go about it with such strength and intensity,  that we unintentionally drown the project.  And then we give up,  the project shrivels,  and we move on.  

But what our lives really need,  is the slow,  drip drip of consistency - which requires thought and control and a waiting for outcomes.  If we are consistent in our new project,  rather than intense about it,  our outcomes are likely to be far better. 

Horrible but true life lesson!  

The Tyranny of Small Decisions

Saw an interesting video about the Tyranny of Small Decisions.  It was originally posited by an economist,  Alfred E Khan. 

It's how small and seemingly inconsequential decisions can have huge or unintended outcomes.  The example given was how you might just pop into Starbucks one day and buy a coffee,  and then everyone around you is doing the same,  and then you are all sad that the charming local indie coffee shop has closed.  It was not your intention, but the ease of Starbucks lured you in,  and then your small inconsequential decision had an outcome you neither wanted or expected. 

It speaks to me,  because I have so many clients who come to me to talk about relationships that are failing,  where neither party wants it to fail,  but the tyranny of small decisions makes them both feel unheard and unloved.  It is possible to turn this around,  but it takes consciousness and purposefulness.  

Lots of women complain that he doesn't make enough effort.  And if you said to him,  every argument about chores is actually diminishing your relationship,  do you want that,  they would often say no.  But the tyranny of small decisions builds over time,  and then it seems,  the decision is made,  and it may not be the outcome either party wanted... 

Since I came across this I have referenced it three times already!  It's a really useful idea and explains a complicated notion really clearly. 

The Zeigarnik Effect

I was doing my monthly reading of a new and interesting way of looking at the world,  and came across the Zeigarnik Effect.  

It's basically about how unfinished tasks keep looping on,  in the back of your mind, and that can make your mind feel cluttered and unable to let go of these unfinished tasks,  whose lack of completion (as opposed to their factual importance) takes up memory and energy in your brain.  

Once you complete something,  your brain can let go of the details and let go of the loop.   So it's not how important the task is,  but how many 'tabs' you have open in your brain. 

This really goes to my list philosophy.  If I have a list,  the page contains the task,  it makes it less overwhelming.  A good list will put things in order - first do a) then b) and now c) is possible.  It gives me some structure and I don't need as much brain energy reminding me,  it's there in the list.  And then,  most importantly,  I tackle the list. 

Completing even small jobs releases memory and bandwidth,  which allows you to move on to the next task cleanly.  If you never complete anything then your brain just keeps looping back,  increasing your anxiety and lessening your bandwidth. 

So don't start doing 15 different things.  Write them down and do them one at a time,  to completion,  and you will feel calmer and more contained. 

Today's anecdote

I always love a Kurt Vonnegut story and he had so many of them!  This one comes from his 2005 essay and poetry collection A Man Without a Country and was shared during an interview with David Brancaccio on PBS's Now with Bill Moyers.

"I once told my wife I was going out to buy an envelope: 'Oh,' she said, 'well, you’re not a poor man…why don’t you go online and buy a hundred envelopes and put them in the closet?' 

And so I pretended not to hear her and went out to get an envelope because I have a hell of a good time in the process of buying one envelope. I meet a lot of people. And see some great looking babies. And a fire engine goes by. And I give them the thumbs up. And I’ll ask a woman what kind of dog that is. And, and I don’t know... 

The moral of the story is…we’re here on Earth to fart around. Of course, the computers will do us out of that. But what the computer people don’t realize, or they don’t care, is we’re dancing animals. You know, we love to move around. And it’s like we’re not supposed to dance at all anymore."

We are dancing animals.  What a beautiful and true perspective.