Finding moments of Grace

It's been a difficult few days and they are only going to get harder.  April will be a tough month.  May,  I hope,  will be the epoch,  and after that,  things will get a little easier.  In the meantime, I'm hunkering down.  

I'm also counting my blessings.  That I live in such a physically beautiful place - Little Bay - near the sea,  near the city,  near national park.  That I enjoy spending time with my husband.  We share this new isolation quietly,  contentedly.  I'm cooking all sorts of new recipes,  baking,  using that weird collection of bananas I had in my freezer.



And tonight we watched JoJo Rabbit,  which moved me far more than I thought I would.  It's funny and whimsical and then suddenly,  terrible and real. It ended with some lines from a poem which really spoke to me,  so I'll reprint them here for you (poetry is like wine to me,  I can get drunk on it,  it punches though my intellect and puts me in a world of feeling)

Go to the Limits of Your Longing,  
by Rainer Maria Rilke

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.

Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Book of Hours, I 59

Wishing you well in these difficult times.  

2 of Wands

I like this card and see it often. It is someone who has achieved a certain level of success, but wants more… there are 2 wands beside you and the world in your hands but you are looking out into the distance. It’s a card of ambition and accomplishment. It’s also a card of planning. The person in the card is not rushing off, he’s harnessing his wands energy and using it wisely. It’s a sense of being in control of your life. I read somewhere that it is the card of applied power, and that’s a phrase that really resonated for me.


The shadow side of the card is someone who doesn’t feel connected to their own lives. They don’t appreciate what they have, and don’t value what they’ve accomplished but are always looking out for something more…


Lovely image of man climbing comes from Cathy Hughes